Saturday I competed first time in 11 months, nervous as hell and I KNEW for sure I would lose my 2 first matches. I still had the left forearm in plaster. I loaded in the same way as many many times before... Going in my own world, thinking and thinking, focuse on my breath, and reduces adrenaline, the adrenaline that didn't excist this time. But I didnt care, its normally nowadays for me not have any adrenaline.

My first match, I had wrapped my left wrist on the outside plaster and put a swab in hand to alleviate the pressure when I held the handle. I stood by the table almost the way a did as a rookie. I knew I had no chance, but. I won, after that match I realized I stood exactly as I used to do, I had full pressure in my grip, my feet were on right place, I did a quick start, a good looking match. I became so glad, this hasn't work for me at all, not this easy either on a training or on a competition... I won 4 matches and lost my second and 6th match, I think. I knew for sure I became 5th. Feels great, I haven't compete since 8th march last year and I haven't train more than once since my operation. And that were the day before, so acctually haven't I trained at all since that so I cant be dissapointed..

I did also few weeks away challenged The master Lady in the Home club for a "super match" on this competition. She became World Champion in Master -80 kg right arm.

She has always when we met in some mystical way "gived up". Not as she have respect it is more like the last thing isnt working, it's more that she did not get into the last gear and everything just stopped in some way... So I thought this would be fun for both me and her. And it did. First match, the "ordinary match" she gived me a fun results I won, bot all she give was  WAY MORE than she has done before.. So I knew it could be hard for me to win our matches.

We did 2 matches in the "super fight" I won both those too, but it was fun to feel her grips and feel she didn't gived up before. Next year on thier competition I hope she get her revenge.. I said to her just after our matches:
- A revenge match next year?  She answered:
- Yes and then you also have your left arm to use.

I love this feeling, to support others and feel the are motivated to refuse to give up.

Nex year I will for sure get a better place than a 5th place, at least in right arm. In left I hope just I won't hurt it again and have good techniqal matches. Who knows, I might even get good places too there. I have a year to train for that.  

Tomorrow starts my temporary job at the preschool, I will be there for 3 weeks, 15 days so it will be great, if I'm lucky I will be there even after this 3 weeks, the whole term, until the summer, I might know for sure In a week or so. 

Hope It works. 22th february starts my rehab-training, hope I can start compete again in july with my Left arm, would be fun if I could. But iuntil then... I will train my right arm even harder and also get LOT more quickness in the starts. Would be fun if I once again could be explosive when I start. Hard training on tuesday eve...